Lily's Dreaming Book: December 2010

This month is winding down, yet it feels as though it’s being wound UP – the pace is increasing, the urgency for Christmas is upon us, and a need for a new year seems vital for many people. In our haste, we forget the chilled beauty of late winter, the fresh loveliness of spring, the blossoming summer, and the sweet autumn days. Take a moment to recall some of the better days from the last four seasons. Very soon, a new Winter will be here, and we want to be ready for it. Remembering 2010 is important, as it will be gone soon.

Now is the time to get out your warm coats, winter boots, gloves, hats, and scarves. Be prepared to pay a higher energy bill. Make lots of tea!

I’ve been spending a few minutes each night meditating on the Advent; I bought a $1 booklet of Advent at a local church, and each day there is a new prayer, meditation, and story to keep your spirit in check. Religious or not, Advent is a beautiful way to clear out the negative energies of the day and fill your body and brain with harmony.

For me, the coming New Year is both welcomed and bittersweet. I welcome a new “four seasons” and new school semesters. New hopes and adventures. However, 2010 was the very last year that my dear Tom was alive. He lived seven days into 2010, and 2011 will be the first year of my life that Tom wasn’t alive. I know he’s here spiritually, someplace, but physically he is gone. Life won’t ever be the same, and in that way I do mourn the passing of 2010.

But must we think in terms of years and hours? Shouldn’t life just be one continuous dance? Tom lived, and when he lived or died shouldn’t matter. HE LIVED. WE LIVED and are LIVING NOW. Forget about years, dates, and time. Life is enough.